Virtual Concert Depression

There are tears in my eyes as I draw a thick red line through my 2020 Colorado concert lineup, every show getting canceled, rescheduled, and postponed. Virtual is just not the same, while my brain lights up at the familiar music and disco lights coming through my screen. The energy is static, coming through in a surge of excitement and sadness all at once. Strobe lights reflecting off my glasses, as I am both vibing and crying in my living room. Reaching for Red Rock’s stars is not the same with a roof above my head.  I am not selfish enough to trade safety for satisfaction, but I do miss concerts so very much. For now, I sit alone in my bedroom in a hoodie that carries the familiar smell of beer and concert smoke, watching each recorded show with nostalgia. Whispering words instead of screaming them, just a lonely fan without a crowd.